Tick List

So yesterday I sent my project Naiad, and was so stoked! Though the grade has not been determined, I think this is the hardest climb i've done to date, and was ecstatic that I sent it!  A week before I sent a climb called Probiscus, that was still pretty hard but not quite as hard.  I am going to start a Tick List of all the 5.11 and 5.12 climbs I have sent on here, just so that I can look back one day and see how far I have progressed!

5.11

1. Equilibrium-Ririe, Idaho-Heise Rock (5.11c)
2. Who Killed Kenny-Ririe, Idaho-Southpark (5.11a)
3. Winchester Pump-Lander, Wyoming-OK Corrall-Wild Iris (5.11a)-ONSIGHT
4. Wild Horses - Lander, Wyoming-Wild Horses Wall-Wild Iris (5.11b)-ONSIGHT
5. Goat Meal-Ririe, Idaho-Pointless Crag (5.10d/5.11a)
6. Scared Stiff-American Fork, Idaho-Massacre Rock (5.11a)
7. Retro Man-Ririe, Idaho-Heise Rock (5.11a)
8. Probiscus-Ririe, Idaho, Arcane Crag (5.11c/d)
9. What's the Point-Ririe, Idaho-Pointless Crag (5.11b)
10. Silver Bolt - Pocatello, Idaho - Sunny Side - 5.11a
11. Rubber Arete - Pocatello, Idaho - Sunny Side - 5.11c

5.12

1. Seeking Sleazy Squeezes-Ririe, Idaho-Heise Rock (5.11d/5.12a)
2. Mr. Hanky (AKA Hanky Panky)-Ririe, Idaho-Southpark (5.12b)
3. Dark Justice-Ririe, Idaho-Heise Rock (5.12b)
4. Naiad-Ririe, Idaho-Arcane Crag (5.12b)

Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Happiness

Anyone who knows me knows that I hate thinking about the future.  That it scares the crap out of me.  And often times, if I'm talking to someone and they ask me what i'm thinking, I will just say Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Happiness...because that is a lot less scary then actually admitting what i'm thinking or feeling.  These past few weeks have been a whirlwind of emotions.  I have been struggling with a decision that I think could affect my future in a pretty big way.  I have an answer though, it's just one that I don't exactly want to accept...that being said, I think it's so important to trust in the Lord.  But for some reason I struggle with that concept still.  Don't get me wrong, i'm trying my hardest to follow what I feel he wants for me, but I am struggling to understand why he wants that for me.  I found this scripture last night, "But behold, the Lord hath redeemed my soul from hell; I have beheld his glory, and I am encircled about eternally in the arms of his love (2 Nephi 1:15).  I really feel as though my life is one big second chance.  I love the Lord, and I know he loves me, but I really struggle in trusting him as much as I should.  So I guess I will have to work on that.